______JOHNNY got his GUN.

GOD DAMMIT, ADD ME ALREADY.

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 20:07:38 GMT

ALRIGHT CUNTS LAST CHANCE YOU GET TO ADD MY NEW FUCKING LJ. COME ON, STOP BEING LUH-AZAY. IF YOU DON'T, YOU'RE OFF MY FRIENDS LIST AND YOU CAN SUCK THE PENIS THAT I DO NNOT HAVE.

my new LJ is: antischism77

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 08:47:21 GMT

LAST CHANCE TO ADD MY NEW LJ. IF YOU DONT, IM UNADDING YOU AND FUCK YOU IN YOUR DIRTY ASS.

antischism77 ADD ME BITCH.

PHOEBE PHETISH

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 19:46:35 GMT

DUDES

i added all of you, please add me back. my new LJ is antischism77

dammit.

blood guts and chicken nuts
PHOEBE PHETISH

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 07:49:36 GMT

NEW LJ NAME. ADD IT OR DIE.

add my new LJ. antischism77

and add my new AIM sn: antischism77

BLOOD GUTS AND CHICKEN NUTS
PHOEBE PHETISH

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 22:07:52 GMT

I never really listened to OpIvy much but now that I have, I'm obsessed. Is it just me, or do they kick way too much ass?

Fell asleep early last night. I left a bowl of cereal to sog and disintegrate on the kitchen table. I woke up around 1:00 PM and was amazed at how late I seemed to wake up. Oh well, I love my sleep.

im making a new layout, make sure you guys look in an hour or so.

being vegan has been okay so far.. but im already getting chorizo y huevos cravings. aye yaye yaye.

alright i found a website i think you all would like very much. it's sort of about freedom of speech, and freedom of the press but it's theme is basically "for people with a critically rational individualist perspective".. meaning indie press, and people who like them. check it out.

http://www.samizdata.net/blog/

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 08:37:16 GMT

alright people i did a major community cleaning out thingie. i removed myself from 6-8 communities, if any of them are yours do not take any offense. i either noticed that

a) your community is dead as a doorknob.
b) i have no clue why i am in there in the first place.
c) i feel that community does nothing for me, and i do nothing for it.
d) your community just plain sucks.

I went vegan.

i want to try it out.

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 01:01:38 GMT

i downloaded soulseek. i've been having fun talking to all of the cute little crusty boys. soulseek is definitely better than kazaa. it has way more stuff. on kazaa i couldnt find ANY masskontroll, diskonto, dissucks, assucks, disclose, disfear, crucial unite, caustic christ, cluster bomb unit, ill repute, 9 shocks terror, inepsy, napalm death, econochrist, zounds, vivisick.. i mean none of my favorite crust bands. on soul seek there's like.. 3490582309485092348. i swear. fucking crazy.

today i walked downtown and miranda saw how short the sides of my head are (mohawkness) and she was like "PHOEBE! what the fuck did you do to your hair?" and i was like "MIRANDA! what the fuck did you do to your face?" then i spit on her shoe and belched REALLY loud. she was like "shut the fuck up. you're disgusting" and kinda laugheed.. she started to walk away and I called her Blowjob Betty and she just glared and kept walking. I guess we arent friends anymore from the looks of it.

LARRY CAME OVER LAST NIGHT! he is such a cutie. he stayed from like 11 PM to 4:30 AM and i swear he is so fucking hot. we were smoking bowl after bowl and suddenly i realised he was irresistable. i swear man i was sitting next to him and he kept eye-ing me and i just wanted to fucking jump on him and makeout with him. i swear. the only person he has had sex with is miranda and that was 2 years ago and he is 18. he is perfect. plus i can make miranda mad.. mwahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

GUYS! DAMMIT JOIN MY NEW COMMUNITY ITS NOT A RATING COMMUNITY
crusties_unite
you dont have to like crust u can be in it to learn about it and shit. please?

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 00:15:10 GMT

FUCK! I'M MISSING RCR BECAUSE I WENT DOWNTOWN TO CATCH THE MTA TO FRISCO AND OMFG IT ALREADY LEFT!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY SKANKSGIVING. AT LEAST, FOR YOU GUYS.

mine just plain out sucked. my dad and i didnt plan anything because blake was supposed to pick us up and bring us to her new house for a vegan skanksgiving but the bitch didn't show so we had a simple dinner with the neighbors. oh well i have nothing to be thankful for anyways.. i mean, not things you're supposed to be thankful for on skanksgiving. i'm thankful for my music, my beer, and my drugs. my friends too. thats about it. meh. fuck skanksgiving in it's dirty turkey-genocide-causing ass.

aaaaaaaaaaaanyways i talked to powda last night. it was cool. im still coming on the 6th. we argued about lots of things, such as vivisection and pills and the like. it was rather.. time consuming. he always kids around with me and uses this cute little voice and says "phoebe.. i wub yoo" haha its so cute.

man the sides of my head are almost bald hahaha and i cut my mohawk a little shorter and OH NO. I STARTED TEASING IT AGAIN. IM TOO LAZY TO PUT IT UP WITH A BLOWDRYER AND PRODUCTS SO.. I TEASED IT! *CRIES*
and WHAT HAPPENED LAST TIME? I GOT DREADS! *CRIES* AGHHHHHHH. OH WELL MY HAIR IS SHORTER NOW SO IT'LL BE EASIER TO COMB THAT SHIT OUT. it looks so good teased though man. pictures are coming soon.

HAHA i was talking to HORNY TAMARA LEE and she called me a crackhead and i came up with the funniest insult.. i called her a CLIT CHEWING HOOKERDOG SLUTRIPPING BUTTHOLEREAPING' PIPESUCKING MONSTER THONG! hahha that is so great.

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 22:40:32 GMT

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

what're your plans?

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 19:12:48 GMT

happy turkey day!

tonight we're having 2 thanksgivings. one at Blake's with a bunch of hippies eating an all-vegan dinner.. then one with jono, dusty, smitty, and david bloom and whoever else is coming and those people are doing a jazz performance. w00t w00t. i love blake. she is a major hippy but she is so liberal and into punk and just wild and crazy. i just love her.

talked to powddddda last night. he had squatter splinter over there. splinter is a scumfuck and he is cool as sliced bread man. he said he is going to eat my puke and let me piss in his mouth. how cool is that? then powda and him were fighting over who gets to eat my puke and beat the shit out of me. (im sorry but im somewhat of a masochist. bloody kisses turn me onnn like whoa. i think melissa's masochism is contagious haha MELISSA I LOVE YOU COME SEE ME.) anyways yesssssssss im coming on jan 6 to mutt.

I AM KEEPING MY MOHAWK. i buzzed the sides and left a little strip of hair along my hairline. it looks so awesome i wish i had my dig cam already :( :( :(

i'm sorry.
i'm sorry if i offended any of you with my post about the whole "dont conform" thing.
i mean YEAHH punks arent like %100 original but they are more original than any other kind of people i can think of. i mean could you eat puke or spit on your own clothes in front of a preppy and live through it? or a gangsta? okay god i hate labels i shall stop using them now. but yeah, you know what i mean. their music is more truthful and to the point than anything else, i mean COME ON you gotta love'em!! <3!

1. Copy and post in your LJ.
2. BOLD anything that is true.
3. Leave plain anything that is not true.
4. Add something.

001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've tried marijuana. sheeeeeeeeeit 24/7!!
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome. not sex, just all making out and stuff.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. ????
012. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
013. I have acne free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton. (he's sort of amusing, but he is a dope)
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been told I have a nice butt.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning.
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look. (half of the time..)
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on significant other. (once!! dont shoot me!)
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I think that I'm popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my LJ!
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn. (sheeeit who doesn't)
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.(how old is this?)
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have tried alcohol before. haha alcohol is my middle name
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
086. I have avoided assignments to be on Xanga or Livejournal. (wtf does that mean?!?!?!)
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love my best friend.
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.(whos going to say no tho that?!)
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving (in a pool)
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost."(Charlie'd dad did that show)
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I don't change who I am for someone.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I am a Senior in High School.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have gastritis.
124. I have nothing better to do with my time.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Most people call me by my middle name.
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. Pie confuses me.
129. I love NASCAR!
130. I own a over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I dont have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor
134. I don't have a nice stomach, I have a bellie.
135. I thinks band kids are the coolest kids in school.
136. Good Charlotte is the worst band ever.
137. I love spiders.
138. I love peanuts.
139. Punks scare me.
140. I think homosexuality is wrong.
141. the holidays depress me.
142. i have done more than just kiss someone of the same sex.
143. you suck.
142. Mohawks on chicks are hot.

Wed, 24 Nov 2004 19:24:42 GMT

last night was so fucking cool.

powda called me to thank me for the CDs i bought for him. then we talked for like 3 hours. he was all hyped up on V and wine. we finalized with us and our parents that im going to see him in FL on Jan 6. I'm buying the plane ticket.

we already decided when i get there we're going to get all fuckedup on wine and mutt in his bedroom. it shall be beautiful. im keeping my mohawk so we can both be mohawk buddies. he makes me feel so good. i went to sleep after he called me, and it was the best night i've had in years. and this morning i felt the best i have felt in years. i almost cried because i was so happy in the shower. it was so beautiful.

i really realllllly like him. he makes me so fucking happy. he was all "you know whats the best? getting drunk and cuddling with someone you really like. And I really like you." and he told me he loved me and such. it was so cute man. i know when i see him again and get off that plane im going to be so nervous. he is such a cutie man. ugh he makes me feel so gooood. im glad that i know now i dont have to pretend anymore.

iwantyourskullz DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS!
MARK THE ONES YOU NEVER DID AND REPOST!
NEVER DID...
( ) I've Never Been Drunk
( ) I've Never Smoked Pot
( ) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Opposite Sex
( ) I've Never Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex (family doesn't count)
(X) I've Never Crashed A Friend's Car (but I've crashed my own)
(X) I've Never Been To Japan
( ) Ive Never Been In A Taxi
( ) I've Never Been In Love
(X) I've Never Had Sex In Public (playgrounds, baseball fields, and cars... oh my!)
( ) I've Never Been Dumped
(X) I've Never Done Cocaine (and never will)
( ) I've Never Shoplifted
( ) I've Never Been Fired
( ) I've Never Been In A Fist Fight (not a "real" fist fight though)
(X) I've Never Had Group Intercourse
( ) I've Never Snuck Out Of My Parent's House
(X) I've Never Been Tied Up
( ) I've Never Been Caught Masturbating
(X) I've Never Regretted Having Sex With Someone
( ) I've Never Been Arrested
( ) I've Never Made Out With A Complete Stranger
( ) I've Never Stolen Something From My Job
( ) I've Never Celebrated New Years In Time Square
(X) I've Never Gone On A Blind Date
( ) I've Never Lied To A Friend
( ) I've Never Had A Crush On A Teacher
(X) I've Never Celebrated Mardi-Gras In New Orleans
(X) I've Never Been To Europe
( ) I've Never Skipped School
(X) I've Never Slept With A Co-Worker
( ) I've Never Cut Myself On Purpose
(X) I've Never Had Sex At The Office
(X) I've Never Been Married
(X) I've Never Been Divorced
(X) I've Never Had Sex With More Than One Person Within The Same Week
(X) I've Never Posed Nude..
(X) I've Never Gotten Someone Drunk Just To Have Sex With Them
(X) I've Never Killed Anyone
(X) I've Never Received Scars From My Sex Partner
( ) I've Never Thrown Up In A Bar
( ) I've Never Purposely Set A Part Of Myself On Fire
( ) I've Never Eaten Sushi
(X) I've Never Been Snowboarding
(X) I've Never Had Sex At A Friend's House While They Were Throwing A Party
(X) I've Never Had Sex In A Dressing Room
(X) I've Never Flashed Anyone.
( ) I've Never Met Anyone From Online.
(X) I've Never Had Sex.

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 21:56:54 GMT

HAHAHA! OH MY GOD.

Andrew, that was byfar the best bit of film i have ever seen in my entire life. thanks for sending it to me hahaha. you are cuter than i remember.

anyways i just got back from school. miranda and donny came to wake me up around 10.. i was like FUCKING A ITS TOO DAMN EARLY! rofl. we smoked some pot and shit. then went to school. blake didnt come today. i was sort of looking forward to it today. hmph.

alright i got paid $100 like 4 days ago now i have $3. i need to stop letting people borrow $ i mean fuck.

Body: mine? eh. short legs, long waist, umm 5'4, 130 lbs..

Spell your first name backwards: ebeohp

The story behind your user name: well let's see. i like sex beer and drugs, and i like 77 punk. hahaha no im a virgin, i do drink, and i only do vicodin pot and mushrooms. so its Beer and Drugs but SEX just fits.

Where do you live: 4 hours north of san francisco, CA with my dad.

6 words that sum you up: cute, weird, dorky, crazy, ambitious, violent at times

DESCRIBE YOUR

Wallet: it was like black and shit.. but now it's covered with duct tape.

Hairbrush: umm silvery

Toothbrush: uh blue?

Pillow cover: i have a lot. mostly black, leopard print, or some DIY ones with band names.

Blanket: which one?

Coffee cup: fuck i have so many.

Sunglasses: i have quite a few

Underwear: i barely wear underwear but when i do they're cute lol

Shoes: my chuck taylors, some creeeepers, or my docs.

Favorite top: erhmm. my black shirt with the metallic writing that says MENDOCINO COUNTY ABALONE FESTIVAL *snickers* its "hawt"

Cologne/Perfume: i like healing garden.. but most of all, VICTORIAS SECRET! god it smells so good haha

CD in stereo right now: i have a 6 disc changaaaa umm 2 mixed CDs, best of david bowie, public enemy - FO SHO!!!, generation x, and tommmmm waits.

Piercings: 2 in my right ear, 1 in my left, my labret (lip), right nostril of my nose, and my bellybutton.

What you are wearing now: eh a black shirt that says GBH Charged in guh-reeeeen. and my black stovepipe pants with all the band names i painted on it. my chucks. that is all.

Hair: a black mohawk that i am currently growing out.

Makeup: right now? um i have red lipstick as usual, and mascara with eyeliner.. those little winged eyeliner things i always do LOL!

In my mouth: I just got done eating bacon and 'taters LOL!

In my head: how much i love a certain somebodayyy.

Wishing: that i can get down to LA asap.

After this: more food, online time, guitar, music, food, bed.

Talking to: andrew and charlie.

Eating: not anymore

Fetishes: hands and hair.

If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason: i dont have the heart to murder anyone man. unless they killed one of my friends or someone in my family.

Person you wish you could see right now: powda

Is next to you: umm my comp, a fax phone, a scanner, a bunch of blank CDs and books and shit.

Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month: RIVER CITY REBELS, Los Angeles here i come!

new years: party at myras!

The last thing you ate: bacon and taters LOL

Something that you are deathly afraid of: drowning.

DO YOU...

Do you like candles: yeshhh at times.

Do you like hot wax: umm...no not really.

Do you like incense: fuck yeah. the pot smelling ones are the best.

Do you believe in love: i definitely do. i think im in love right now with someone who i know loves me back but i cant act on it.. itll ruin everything.

Do you believe in soul mates: maybe.

Do you believe in love at first sight: lust at first sight!

Do you believe in Heaven: fuck that

Do you believe in forgiveness: yes, not if it has to do with jesus

Do you believe in God: fuck no

OTHER CRAP....

What do you want done with your body when you die: i want to be buried. i'd be open for donating my body for scientific study but i want my great grandchildren to be able to see where im buried and shit.

Who is your worst enemy: i dont have one.. but i really fucking hate mark ciarello at DC comics.. fuck him. oh britanie boggs and victoria flores too.

If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be: a skunk or a pot bellied pig. but my dad already said we could get one or the other.

What is the latest you've ever stayed up: haha i've stayed up for like 4 days straight and that sucked. boy am i never doing that again

Ever been to Belgium: haha, no.

Can you eat with chopsticks: yes sirrrrrr. and IM NOT ASIAN TO THOSE OF YOU WHO FEEL LIKE CRACKING THE "PHOEBE LOOKS ASIAN" JOKES RIGHT ABOUT NOW.

What's your favorite coin: a cool one.

What are some of your favorite pig out foods: cookie dough, potstickers, chorizo, or california rolls.

What's something that you wish people would understand: i do the shit i do because its me and it makes me happy. i hate when people ask me why i listen to this music, why i wear these clothes, why my hair looks like that. it's like HELLO!?!? ITS BECAUSE I FUCKING WANT TO!

What's something you wish you could understand better: why people make the decisions they do..

Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time: all my LA friens *sniffs*

What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow: have lots of pot, have Mr. Wauson NOT tell me he knows im stoned, for the cuts on my fingers to heal from ripping them on my guitar strings so i can play guitar without pain.

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 19:40:57 GMT

damn. 3 days til thanksgiving and i am completely fucking clueless on what we're doing. i'd be fine even if we had no thanksgiving.. or maybe just a kegger. i dont know.

the hollywood dude didnt callll of course. hm. i went downtown this morning for decaf for Eddie, and for some bacon. i didnt get to eat it because i had to go to school though. FUCKING A. im huuuuuungry. ill have some of the rice crispies i brought. anyways i saw larry downtown and talked for a bit. we saw some dogs in an SUV that looked just like the Target dogs! fuck yeah.

alright the scene is really pissing me off right now. i don't even LIVE in a place with a scene and it still pisses me off. people hate anything that ever made it big. people hated great musicians like the beatles because they were humongously famous. i know kids who look for punk bands online just for the sole purpose of finding bands that arent as "commercial as the casualties" as some of them say. all MTV music isn't bad. it's MTV that is bad. I mean I like the white stripes and the hives and the vines and the strokes. they're fucking awesome. i like the yeah yeah yeahs too.

i mean YEAH they are on MTV but that doesnt mean they suck. and YEAH they are on MTV but that doesnt mean they dont deserve respect for how fucking hard they worked to get where they are.

ALSO. alll of the "punkers" i know are all about DONT CONFORM!! but they all wear the same exact pair of converse chucks or docs and have the same exact mohawk (maybe a diff color but it still looks the same) and the same fucking patches and leather jackets! the same exact band shirts! im fucking tired of the scene. im growing my damn mohawk out.

I MEAN FUCK. thats why i have so much respect for Jello Biafra. he sang in a punk band and GOD was he fucking amazing. but did you ever see him with a mohawk or liberty spikes or a scuffed up jacket with studs? he remained true to the scene without going commercial, also. if he walked down the street u'd never guess he was into punk/a "punk". he is brilliant.

anyways enough of my rant.

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 00:07:43 GMT

tiger army is fucking amazing. w00t. i talked to squatter zach after not seeing him for a month. he's in santa cruz, and brendon and KC went back to rhode island. poor kids. yesterday the perv neighbors cool ass dad came and we let him stay at our house. he is fucking awesome he used to jam with benny goodman and fats waller and he plays bass guitar and trumpet. he's fucking awesome. he was stranded on an island in Brazil one time for 3 days and was in the Navy man.

powda is coming soon. w00t w00t! <3

"Valley Of Dreams" - Tiger Army

Night eternal in the Valley of Dreams
It is said not to exist but I have seen
If you come with me we could stay forever
Into the endless that you cannot leave

I prowl the night
A tyger, tyger burning bright now
There’s something in the air
Forever searching but I find it nowhere

Until till the burning in my heart
Turns to ash and I’m laid to rest
Until the tears of blood don’t drop
Like rain falling from the sky
This is what i am

Alone in this world because we’re not like them
We see the things that they cannot see
We’ve tasted things of which they’ll never know
No matter day and night, forever lost in dreams

it's awesome that they took a line from William Blake's - "The Tiger"

The Tiger by William Blake
Tiger Tiger burning bright,
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye,
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?
In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare seize the fire?

And what shoulder and what art
Could twist the sinews of thy heart?
And when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand and what dread feet?

What the hammer? what the chain?
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? What dread grasp
Dare its deadly terrors clasp?

When the stars threw down their spears,
And water'd heaven with their tears,
Did He smile His work to see?
Did He who made the lamb make thee?

Tiger, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?

i need a bf or a gf.

Sun, 21 Nov 2004 04:57:26 GMT

started my diet today. i'm not dieting because i think i'm fat, but i'm dieting because i think i need to lose some bad eating habits and start eating healthily again. Cabbage soup tonight. My dad made it. It was fucking bad ass. Cybirk, my Dad, and I all had a nice long conversation about Timothy Leerie, his documentary, and numerous drugs. It was quite the refresher. MELISSA. fuck I miss you. you need to update your LJ more often. I love you so much, HOOKERDOG. <3

i had this weird dream. I dreamed I lived in NYC again and I had a boyfriend. He was hispanic, tall, with black liberty spikes. Well we had an amazing day. I mean just laying around, cuddling, kissing, being so affectionate and I remember feeling like I was in love. I then went to his house and knocked on his door. His mom said he was playing video games with one of his friends, and I remember she didn't speak english very well.. But I looked over her shoulder and saw this hispanic chick inside making out with him. I was heartbroken. Later that day (still in the dream) my dad and I went to the grocery store and I was standing in some girls way so I said "Oh sorry" and smiled and I turned and it was the hispanic chick. I remember feeling really awkward.

I really don't believe in dreams "symbolizing" certain aspects of my life, but if it did I know what it would mean. I remember one of my best guy friends named Abraham, hispanic + tall + liberty spikes, and we had sort of a fling. We flirted around a lot for a few days. Then one day we got drunk with his mom and his sister and his sisters and my friend, Yolanda. I remember he payed no attention to me and was sort of.. all up on Yolanda. I remember how awkward it was when Yolanda and I hung out later and talked and ran into eachother. I really try not to think about that shit that happened so maybe my dream meant I shouldnt try to forget my past because it happened to me and it'll always be a part of me and my lameXcore ass needs to realise that.

i dont know maybe i am just a little too stoned.

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The horny drunk who tries to hump your bedpost	_pnub_
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Sat, 20 Nov 2004 06:57:31 GMT

fucking people. all these people i know who consider themself "punk" are all "anti-society" "anti-corporate" and all that shit. but you judge me on my music like it's some sort of social contest, YOU KNOW WHO. who gives a fuck if I like Vice Squad? No matter how many times you tell me you hate the Spikey Hair song, I will play it and stick the fucking stereo in your ass and ask if it tickles.

I'm sorry I like what I like, and I am sorry you want to be an obnoxious prick and judge me for it. And don't give me that shit about "It's just a joke!" I'm sorry but a joke that runs for 5 months and you tell me it everytime you talk to me is NOT a good joke and doesn't deserve to even be called one. so, lick me where i pee and take your hypocritical bitch ass to the curb, nukka.

ANYWAYS. i made a few cool things in photoshop. they suckk but i am a beginner. care to see?

the last 3 are the same girl i scanned in from a Cosmo Girl magazine i got today.

which brings me to the subject.. WHICH ONE OF YOU ASSHOLES SUBSCRIBED ME TO COSMO GIRL? I'LL KEEL YOU. fuck I know it was davey. don't even lie. it wasnt that bad, seeing as Angelina Jolie was on the cover OWW OWWWWWWWW HUBBA HUBBA!

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 19:41:20 GMT

fuck. i'm at school. god damn Mr. Wauson watches Ambush Makeover all day every fucking day.

Miranda Donny and I went outside and got free sodas for refilling Wauson's soda machine. We're so radXcore.

then I counted the money and got another free soda. why am I such a pig?

I talked to that Hollywood dude. it turns out he does want me to be on MTV and all that stupid shit but he says Avril is nothing but a publicity stunt and that she sucks and he wants me to get in a band and get good before i get a record deal. what do you guys think? I don't know. I really hate MTV. corporate bastards. Most of their music sucks man. The only good shit I have seen on there is like.. umm. the hives, the strokes, jet, the donnas, the yeah yeah yeahs and i like radiohead/cold play. if i was ever even going to think about being on MTV i'd have to revolutionize what MTV calls "rock". i'd have to kick so much ass, because if I take this chance I don't want to be some little pop band like GC.. ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. I'd have to be a rockin' bitch and if I can't accomplish that, than fuck Jono in his butt. he says the first thing he would do is get me a gig at the X games or the Gorge Games or whatever, since he is a street looger and he is all into Extreme Sports. He is friends with like Tony Hawk and shit so I could soo easily get a gig through him. I don't know man this is all confusing. what do you think?

PS
wtf? the DATE on my LJ update page says January 24, 1970.. ?

<3

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 00:06:40 GMT

haha i made a cool picture.

mwahahaha. i am so fucking talented. fuck. :P

__so_hott is the most ignorant community i have ever applied to. YOU KNOW WHO, thanks for telling me to fucking apply, dumb bitch. anyways they said i look like i shower 3 times a week and someone called me a "dumpster kid".. then some bitch was like "I never said what u said abotu pot was wrong!!" THEN she was like "why would u put urself around one drug (pot) but not any of the other ones? Even if its just a little wrong, its STILL wrong!" i was like WTF lying ass bitch. hahahahaha. anyways you guys should alll harass her up the booty hey lj is h0ldxmexclose go tell her she's a prissy MTV zombie hypnotised by society.. she'll get so mad. ROFL. she also said "mohawks are ugly and weird, not hot!!" hahaha.

anyways i love u all. do u love me?

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 17:51:32 GMT

yesterday was shite, but it doesn't cease to exist, therefore i must tell you about it.

eh i woke up and miranda came. fucking bitch. i made up some lie saying i didnt work all weekend so i cant have anyone over for a week because i have to work and my dad will ground me if i have any distractions that are shieldable. anyways she came over and we went to school and i called my dad and i told her he said now i cant have people over for 3 weeks. SALVATION. she didnt come over today. dumb bitch.

today im turning in my application to the Record. it's a cute little cafe that sells coffee and organic foods. hopefullllly i'll make it and shit will be grand. i can finally buy a enw dig. cam. YAY!

anyways i took a few new pics with my teachers camera and im taking more today so i can update and show you guys what i look like after alll this time of not having my dig. hahahahaha.

I WANT TO GO TO BRITICH INVASION. FUCK.

bleh my dads hollywood friend jono came over yesterdayyyy and i was all singing to the distillers and he asked me if i wanted a record deal.. the first thing i said was "fuck you! i mean.. sorry it was a reflex." hahahahahahaha it was hilarious. what should i do? i told him to call me today and shit. but i dont know if i want a record deal if its one of those things where i get on MTV or whatever fucking shit. i mean fuck.

now, off to school i go. im taking some rice crispies to school and using the teacher's milk he has in the fridge for cereal. YUM!

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Tue, 16 Nov 2004 16:18:32 GMT

man I am fucking tired. my alarm clock woke me up at 7:30.. I wasn't mad though. Because it woke me up with Marty Robbins! "El Paso" is such a good song. ha. People who are too punkrock for anything but punkrock, suck fat ass and FUCK YOU.

aaaaaaaaanyways courtney spent the night 2 nights ago and went to school early in the morning.. then Miranda came and woke me up. fucking bitch. pulling my covers off and shit. I actually told her "this is my fucking house dont expect me to let you walk right in and wake me up. it's disrespectful!" hahaha it was funny.

school was okay. smoked a bunch of pot using my vaporizor with mike after miranda FINALLY left. man that thing is brutal. it's made to give you a pure THC hit with NO smoke. it's amazing. I was stoned like whoa. fuck. hahaha. today I am going to school. I need to turn in my work and get new work. then do that work.

i finally downloaded some blood brothers and im downloading taking back sunday right now. everyone loves them so i thought i should hear'em. blood brothers are good, i havent hard tbs yet. what are your guys' favorite blood brothers/tbs songs?

anyways this entry is byfar the most boring so I am going to start having Questions of the Day like my dear friend monkeybuttmoans.

QUESTION OF THE DAY: What are your guys' favorite artists/songs that aren't punk or ska?

a punk survey you all MUST take. I made it up so do it do it do it!

What are all of the genres of music you enjoy listening to?:
Which punk bands do you think are and will always be the worst?
The best?:
How do you feel about Sid Vicious?:
Joe Strummer?:
Patti Smith?:
Nancy Spungen?:
the Ramones?:
Johnny Thunders?:
GG Allin?:
Brody Dalle/Armstrong?:
Lars Frederiksen?:
Billy Idol?:
What do you think "punk" is?:
What was byfar the best show you ever attended?:
What was byfar the worst?:
What bands have you seen?:
How is the scene in your town/city?:
Do you contribute to your scene? How?:
How do you feel about "fashionXcore punks" or "trendy punks"?:
How do you feel about Hot Topic?:
How do you feel about shit bands like Good Charlotte?:
What do you consider "selling out"? Being on MTV, or changing your music to make more money?:
How do you feel about "anarchy"?:
TA DA.

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 17:46:04 GMT

went to a party last night. it was OKAY. courtney left my house and i took a nap for like 2 hours. i woke up when Larry called me asking if I had any pot. I told him yes and that I was going to a party later and if he goes with me I'd smoke some with him. We went and basically just sat around and I pigged out on soda, beer, hot cheetos, fig newtons (EW!), hotdogs and such. it was dayum good. then came the pot, then came larry's departure. he went home and i stayed and took some bong rips with this Jewish Italian guy. he fucking rocks. I love the Jews and I love the Italians. His name was Precoppio and he was a medical marijuana patient. Israeli weed is the best. He's moving back to Cecily in May. fucking awesome.

I got way too stoned. I was sick and I couldn't tell if I was falling and shit. So my dad walked me home and I was dead beat tired. I made some pasta because I was too lazy to make a real meal. It was about 10 and I was exhausted. I tried to sleep but everytime I closed my eyes I felt sick. You know how when you're high you feel like vibrations on your arms and back and shit? well I guess when your eyes are open you can tell nothing is touching you so it's more reassuring.. but when u close your eyes it scares you so it makes you sick. finally it went down and i fell asleep and got pasta sauce all over my bed. fuck.

this morning i woke up and my dad told me he met a girl he really likes. i wanna meet her. he puked all over the porch. he puked up some kind of pasta salad from the party but it was all purple.. fucking weird man. anyways now i am tired and hungover and bleh.

man i cant believe my dig cam broke. im buying a new one when i get paid or when my dad feels like being a nice person to me. fuckkkk. how am i gonna take pics? AGH. pooooop. i really need a boyfriend. i miss Los Angeles. get me the fuck out of this place. I miss LA people and LA punk scenes and LA music and LA scenery and LA beaches and LA houses and LA stores and LA everything! FUCK. and most of all i miss all the LA boys and girls I have crushes on. I need a bg or a gf.

THINGS I HATE. inspired by my love, Morgan, teenage_harlet.

- when I am out of pot or beer.
- missing good shows due to parental restrictions.
- justin sane's, the lead singer of AntiFlag's, voice.
- when my fingers bleed from playing guitar.
- hanging out with miranda or geneva or ashley.
- guys who won't stop hitting on you even though it's CLEAR you don't like them.
- loadies who sit around and do drugs and dont do anything else.
- people who hate people who are different than them.
- preachy sXe kids, bible thumpers, or preachy vegans/vegetarians.
- people who abuse their pets or just animals in general.
- when you start to make something to eat and you realise that you're missing a main ingredient.
- MTV/BET/the whole corporate media, and the people who obide by it like it's the bible.
- not being able to read the newspaper everyday.
- all of the bad cartoons/comic books that are coming out. whatever happened to good ol' jack kirby and steranko?
- taking a hit off of a pipe when the bowl is cashed.
- when i hear something interesting on talk radio and i look for it everywhere and it's nowhere to be seen.
- warm beer.
- people who discriminate against me because i am different.
- people who say i need to listen to some "real music" when THEY listen to pop CRAP like good charlotte and coheed.
- yo mama.

THINGS I LOVE.
- sushi, chorizo, and potstickers. yummmm.
- punk, ska, rock, rockabilly, punkabilly, psychobilly, political rap, 80s, old country (johnny cash, zz top), blues (ray charles, john lee hooker) beatnick (tom waits) and glam rock.
- animals.
- leopard print.
- crazy hair.
- homemade / DIY clothes.
- jello biafra and his spoken words/poems. I like DK just for the fact that they present good music even though Jello was the only real one and the other ones are sellout commercial bastards.
- illegally downloading music. mwahahahahahahaha.
- smoking pot and drinking. hey, everybody has their poison.
- making out.
- politics! i fucking love them! i dont like most of the people who are IN them as in "the system" but i love to discuss politics.
- vandalizing/fucking shit up. it's fun, you should try it.
- playing guitar.
- seeing my dad dance.
- the good punk scenes of today.
- people who listen to a complete different style of music then i do, but they still respect me and my opinions and we get along great. (that rarely happens :( haha )
- classical cars like my favorite.. the 1957 Chevy BelAir Deluxe.
- '20s-'50s style clothes makeup hair.
- i love old silver screen (black and white) movies.

okay im done.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 22:01:31 GMT

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!

somebody ANYBODY who lives in the fucking Cali bay area, are any of you going to British Invasion? Because then you should sooooo give me a ride down there. I'll love you forever. and ever. and ever. and ever. and EVER. fuck.

miranda called me today and told me to dump danno for her because she lied to him and he found out and they got in a fight. so i did.. fuckkkk. he was all "i don't give a fuck. I broke that shit off like a week ago when I was in jail. She ain't nothin' but a crackedout fuckin whore." and i was like "you're fucking evil" and he's like "only the good die young. thats why im still here. sorry for 'accidentally' hitting your cat." rofl it was no accident. fuckkkkk.

i talked to powda and davie last night. powda got a tattoo. one of the old crusty punk anarchy signs. i bet it's hot. because powda is hot and stuff.. haha.

alright everyone should go to the hives show at the warfield in SF on dec 11.. its like $20.

also the river city rebels show on nov 26 in sf at the bottom of the hill... like $8.

GO OR DIE!

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 23:23:46 GMT

egh miranda is an annoying cunt bastard hoe.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways, courtney spent the night last night and the night before.. she's staying all weekend since her and her dad are having "problems". both nights jonothan and forest came over and we smoked pot.

courtney TRIES every night to put her MTV music CD on and I always tell her I'm going to snap it into pieces. THEN, i put my CDs on. the CD I have been listening to lately has NWA, Public Enemy, Distillers, Exploited, Tiger Army, Left Over Crack, Partisans, Agnostic Front, LCB, DK, and jello biafra spoken words.

anyways we went to Gualala today. copy plus was closed.. FUCKERS.

thirteen random things you like:

1) sleeping
2) playing guitar
3) smoking pot/drinking
4) going to shows
5) my cat
6) insects
7) vandalizing shit/beating people up
8) studying languages
9) politics
10) DK/jello biafra spoken words
11) chorizo y huevos/sushi
12) attending political rallies/protests
13) making out

twelve movies:
1) 28 Days Later
2) Life Is Beautiful
3) A Clockwork Orange
4) Once Upon a Lifetime In America
5) the Professional
6) Miller's Crossing
7) Irma La Douce
8) Fight Club
9) American History X
10) Fahrenheit 9/11
11) Il Postino
12) Momento

eleven good bands/artists:
1) Dead Kennedys
2) GBH
3) Exploited
4) Varukers
5) the Business
6) Agnostic Front
7) Left Over Crack/Choking Victim
8) the Partisans
9) the Distillers
10) the Hives
11) the Strokes

ten things about you ... physically:
1) chick
2) black mohawk
3) brown eyes
4) nose, lip (labret), ears, bellybutton pierced
5) 5'4
6) like 130 lbs
7) lil freckles
8) short legs, long waist
9) small feet
10) chubby hands

nine good friends:
1) melissa
2) courtney
3) stevie
4) adam
5) davie
6) larry
7) mike
8) javel
9) ciskoe

eight favorite food/drinks:
1) sushi
2) chorizo
3) geyoza (potstickers)
4) sushi
5) water
6) juice
7) ANY veggies
8) apples

seven people you’ve kissed:
1) Javel
2) Ben
3) Randy
4) Andrew
5) Kurt
6) Stevie
7) Mike

six things that annoy you:
1) girls
2) having no beer or pot
3) missing good shows due to parental advisory
4) bad mohawk days
5) MTV zombies
6) people who are too punkrock to listen to anything except punk

five things you touch everyday:
1) my hair
2) clothes
3) doors
4) people
5) the computer haha

four shows you watch:
1) reno 911
2) simpsons
3) daily show
4) dave chapelle

three things you wear every day:
1) shirt
2) pants
3) shoes

two celebrities you have a crush on:
1) jello biafra
2) natalie portman/angelina jolie

one thing about yourself that you want everyone to know:
1) im bi

Tue, 09 Nov 2004 21:17:16 GMT

MY MILKSHAKE BRINGS ALL DA BOYS TO DA YAHHHD.

fuck I'm at school. I'm craving a fucking soda. Donald Preston Eagleton is sitting next to me right now looking at me type. I just typed and erased "He sucks penis" and he said "You're stupid!" hahaha. then I made him touch my scabby eyeball.

dudes my fucking eyes got all puffy 3 weeks ago the day after i did mushrooms and ever since my eyes have been like scabby at the corners and shit. i think it was a shroom allergic reaction but i use black sharpies for my eyeliner and the scabs are right where my eyeliner is. FUCK that sounds gross. it really isnt hahaha.

man i need a bf. someone come pick me up and rape me in a dumpster and then lets get married. NOW!

<3

what THE fuck WAS he THINKING?

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 07:21:17 GMT

man oh man oh man oh man. one of my dear dear dear friends did something with this 1 chick whom i have no clue who she was but i found out and man oh man oh man he was talking about how hott she is when really she is oogly and omg ew. fuck what the fucking hell was going through his fucking mind? FUCK.

mann i spent the whole weekend like cleaning up the mess that zach and his hippy/crusty punk friends left in my house. i went to homecoming last night. UGH it sucked. EXCEPT for the bottle of watermelon Pucker that me and Miranda downed.. WOOHOO! anyways what a waste of $12. I wore a long black homecoming dress Miranda let me borrow, then I wore my combat boots, bullet belt, and my mohawk up. YAY it was cool.

then that night me and miranda went to Larry's and got him and mike and we all went back to my house and smoked out of the vaporizor. DUN DUN DUN!! haha it was badass. they left and then we fell asleep. today Miranda went to a BDAY party on the res with Tina Marie Bristol. f0 sh0.

DUDES!! TOMORROW IS GOING TO BE SO FUCKING BADASS!! miranda's idiot boyfriend Danno is in jail for drinking in public and he gets out tomorrow in Ukiah and we are gonna ditch school and steal her mom's car and drive 2 hours there and back to pick him up. it's gonna be SO fucking fun.

man man man man man the only problem with me moving from here to LA is that.. up here has the fucking BEST pot i swear and it's free or cheap but down there there's a lot of shitty pot and its not easy to get and its not that cheap.. FUCK, im still going to LA.

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NuthingICanDo: mm
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SexBeerDrugs77: hahaha
SexBeerDrugs77: .
NuthingICanDo: lol isn't that fun?
NuthingICanDo: .
SexBeerDrugs77: haha it definitely is
SexBeerDrugs77: .
NuthingICanDo: haha I'm glad you enjoy it
NuthingICanDo: .
NuthingICanDo: it's not as much fun when you just put it at the end of the sentence.
NuthingICanDo: haha yes it is.
SexBeerDrugs77: LOL! i know man.
SexBeerDrugs77: for real.
SexBeerDrugs77: we are totally cool man.
SexBeerDrugs77: i cant wait til everyone sees us doing this.
NuthingICanDo: lol
NuthingICanDo: I know huh.
SexBeerDrugs77: and knows how cool and punk we are.
NuthingICanDo: lol.
SexBeerDrugs77: hahaha.
NuthingICanDo: it's going to be a huge fad.
SexBeerDrugs77: i know man.
SexBeerDrugs77: we are such trend setters.
NuthingICanDo: and all the Hot Topic shirts are going to end in ".".
NuthingICanDo: lol
SexBeerDrugs77: omg i know. and every one of those little poser avril/gc groupie hoes will wear them.
SexBeerDrugs77: and not know that the people who created the "." fad actually hate them and want them to fucking die.